My laptop

My laptop has died which as a result I haven't been able to blog as much or at all. :( I hope to have it back up and running soon!!!


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Doing my happy dance

So I just have to update really fast. After about 5 mins of trying to decide to weigh or not I finally decided too and well... I have lost about 4 pounds since I weighed last which brings me to a grand total of 10 pounds since thanksgiving. I am just so overjoyed at the moment. Hope everyone else has something to do a happy dance about today!!!

I leave you with the cutest dogs ever!!!







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Some days you gotta dance

erday was a pretty crummy day. I had a ton of things on my mind and just a lot of things that were bugging me. Ever had one of those days? Where your in a slump and no matter what you do, you can't get out of it? Well, that was me yesterday. I ended up going to pick my best friends little girl up from daycare yesterday and babysat her for the day. That helped for a little while I was busy and I forgot about all my problems. Eventually it was time to take her home and when we got there her cousin was there. I ended up hanging out at their house for a little while and the kids were going crazy. Which lead to these videos.

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sorry for the quality the room was kinda dark and I took them from my iPhone.

All of us adults ended up joining in and danced with them. I ended up dancing my problems away. Seriously, I know it sounds corny but while dancing around the room i really felt like my problems just didn't matter and I forgot all about them.

I think the Dixie Chicks say it best when they say....

Some days you gotta dance
Live it up when you get the chance
'Cause when the world doesn't make no sense
And you're feeling just a little too tense
Gotta loosen up those chains and dance

Glee Geek

Okay so is anyone else out as in love with the show Glee as I am? Seriously, I don't know how I am supposed to last until April. I guess I am just going to have to get the Season 1 DVD when it comes out and watch it over and over until April. What are your thoughts on the show? Love it? Hate it? Personally its one of my favorite shows. It ranks right up there with One Tree Hill, Greys Anantomy and True Blood!!!!

One of my favorite performances from the show!

Oh me oh my.

I haven't blogged in a few days. Truth is nothing has been going on. I live a pretty boring life and I just don't know really how to blog on anything but my life (and i don't do that all that well). I have been so stressed about Christmas and what to get people and how I am going to come up with money to get people gifts its just driving me crazy. I love Christmas so much and anything to do with Christmas but this year has been hard. I am living pay check to pay check and sometimes even having trouble doing that. So this Christmas buying presents has been rough. I have only bought for my dogs and my dad. Now only about 10 other people to buy for. This shouldn't be hard right? Hope they all love stuff from the dollar store cause at this point it seems like that is all there getting.

So last night I had another adventure with my best friend and her daughter. This time we decided to go to Tanglewood. Tanglewood is a huge place that you drive thru and see about 20 mins worth of awesome Christmas lights. Well Tanglewood opened at 6:00. We didn't make it there until about 7:00. Well they were already lined up about a mile and a half away from the actual park. It took us about 4 hours to get less than 2 miles. 4 HOURS!! It only takes about 3 to 3 1/2 hours to get to Myrtle Beach from here. We could have done been almost 300 miles in what it took us to go that mile and a half. Add a 2 1/2 year old into the mix and it is NO fun, I wouldn't lie. By the time we got into the park it was about 11:00. By this time I was tired, My best friend was tired, and her daughter was so beyond tired that she was whining about EVERYTHING! So in the end what did we learn? Waiting in line for 4 hours is not worth seeing 20 minutes worth of Christmas lights when the lights haven't changed since you were 10.

I really have nothing to report on the weight loss. I can tell that my body is starting to tone up more, which is what I wanted, but also I wanted to get smaller. I haven't changed my diet plan and I haven't had any cheat days or anything like that. I thought maybe once it got past a certain point maybe it would get easier and you would be able to tell more that I was losing weight but no, you really can't. So I am left still feeling like a fat slob about a month later. I am not giving up though, if it takes exercising more then that is what I will do. I am so determined to loose this weight that failure/giving up is not an option. Hopefully I will have better news to report once the next post. *Fingers Crossed*.

I wasn't able to take any fun exciting pictures from my Tanglewood trip (so lame I know)!! So I am leaving you with pictures of my beautiful baby boys whom I love dearly.

 

 

Hope everyone had a great weekend!!!!!

My Playlist.

Now that I have been totally dedicated to working out and really losing my access weight that I have packed on in the last year, I have been turning to my playlist now more than ever while I am walking/running in the mornings. Some of my favorites as of right now ( I am sure it will change in a few days.. it always does!) are....

20) Kid Cudi- I Poker Her Face
19) Estelle- American Boy
18) Lady GaGa- Bad Romance
17) Kellie Pickler- Best Days of your Life
16) Keke Palmer- Bottoms Up
15) Framing Hanley- Built For Sin
14) Pussycat Dolls- Elevator
13) Breathe Carolina- Gossip
12) Jay-Z & Mariah Carey- Heartbreaker
11) Jay-Z & Alicia Keys- Empire State of Mind (def one of my faves)
10) Pixie Lott- Here we go again
9) Rhianna- If It's Lovin' that you want
8) Citizen Cope- Let the Drummer Kick
7) Pixie Lott- Mama Do (another one of my def faves)
6) Pussycat Dolls- Out of this Club
5) Jason Aldean- Shes Country
4) Usher- Papers
3) Jay-Z & Rhianna- Run This Town
2) Lady GaGa & Flo-rida- Starstruck



AND MY MOST FAVORITE SONG RIGHT NOW OF THE MOMENT IS:
LEIGHTON MEESTER SOMEBODY TO LOVE





Whats on your playlist right now? Anything I should check out? I have such a broad taste in music, I like about everything so fess up!!

Gone but not forgotten..

A little over two months ago a friend of mine was killed while serving in Afghanistan. I remember getting the telephone call as if it happened 5 minutes ago. I got the call while I was at work. "You heard what happened right?" "No?" "Alan died. Alan is dead. He got killed by a suicide bomber and that is all we know for now."  It hit me so hard I couldn't even cry. It didn't seem real. So many questions started going through my mind. It was like one big blur. He was dead? Just like that? How could this happen? Why did this have to happen? Are they sure it was him? Couldn't it be a mistake it happens all the time, right? After I hung up the phone I sat there for 30 minutes or more in total shock replaying the conversation in my head, thinking the same questions over and over. Finally after I had come to the realization that this was real, that this wasn't a joke, and that Alan would but coming home, but just not the way he was supposed to. I can't even begin to write the emotions that I was feeling. So many emotions hit me like a ton of bricks and in that moment all I knew to do was cry. Cry because I knew I would never see Alan again, because he left behind so many people that loved him. I cried because his two year old daughter would grow up only hearing stories about how much her dad loved her but never really getting the chance to experience that love first hand. She would never get to see just how with one sentence Alan could have you rolling on the floor laughing. She will now have experience all of this through the pictures and the stories that we would tell her, but oh the stories that we can tell her. I can't even begin to explain how much fun I used to have with Alan. See my best friend of 14 years was married to him, that is how I met Alan. I remember the very first night i was introduced to him, the memory stands out in my mind now more than ever. We got invited to his house for a friend of ours 21st birthday kegger. We were introduced and it was like that instant we were great friends. We started drinking and being retarded together as if we had been friend for a long time. Finally as the night was coming to an end he took me to a back room because he had to show me something important.

He fumbled through somethings and finally pulled out a shoebox with random things in it. Finally he pulled out a box that I knew had either a ring or earrings. He opened the box and at the moment he told me that he was going to ask my best friend to marry him.  I remember telling him that he was drunk and really needed to wait until he was sober. He insisted that he wasn't and that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with her. That is only the first of many great memories with Alan. One of the last memories I have with him is one night I went to his and my bff's house. Alan decided that he wanted to play beer pong but we had a problem. We had NO beer! So what was our solution? Go out and buy some beer? HA no way! Not us! We decided to play with the
rum that was in the freezer. So that night me and Alan played about 3 rounds of Sprite & Rum pong. Wow what a big mistake that was. That night Alan became one of my girl boy friends. He had several heart to hearts about life and friendships and other stories that people will never know. There were several things that Alan opened up to me about that I'm not sure if he ever told anyone, and I told  him things that i had never shared with anyone before. Yes of course the alcohol was to blame but that doesn't change the fact that that night I saw a different side to Alan and he saw a different side to me. I am so grateful that I had that night with him. I can honestly say at that night I considered Alan to be one of my best friends and I hope he thought of me the same. I could go on and on with stories that I had with Alan but I know no matter how much I talk/blog about the memories or how much I stop and wonder in a day, "is this real", the truth is yes it is real.
The day at the funeral home seeing all these pictures of Alan, seeing a casket that was close with two guys standing guard, seeing all of Alan's family and friends all together in a room mourning a life that was taken too soon in fact made it all real. It made me realize that Alan is gone and all I have left is the memories that I shared with him, and a lesson that was learned to spend every moment you can with the important people in your life. Stop focusing on the negative because life is way too short to take it for granted. In an instance it can be taken away from you or can be taken from someone that you love. So be sure you tell them you love them, or how much they mean to you, or just how grateful you are that they are in your life. You really never know when it may be your last chance.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

RIP ALAN. you may be gone but you are not forgotten your memory will live on and on! I hope you've got everyone laughing up there like you always had us laughing down here. Watch over us and keep us safe and be sure to watch over tater tot and keep her safe. Miss you and I'll be seeing you.